Saturday, January 7, 2012

Blubbering Like A Beluga Whale

Every now and then something strikes me as funny.  I mean really funny and I can laugh myself right out of control.  Doesn't happen a lot but it's as good as it gets when it does.  

On the other hand, however, I can be deadly serious.  Like today.  And yesterday.  For some reason that I think has something to do with Christmas, I've fallen off the cliff of sanity into the valley of depression.  I have lots of excuses...like an emergency oral surgery....and my sister moving to Amsterdam.....my friend's funeral today.....and my lack of anything slightly resembling a hormone in my entire body.  Whine, whine, whine.

For example, yesterday I was reading a magazine article to my husband about a vibrantly healthy 86 year old man from his home town who bikes all over the world.  When I got  to this sentence, "In 1995, I was sitting in my house alone, and I decided I needed to do something",  my voice quivered and tears fell out of my eyes. I had delivered the sentence as dramatically as little Elliot when he said goodbye to ET, "I'll wait right here."  No dry eyes in the theater. The absurdity of my reaction coupled with  the stunned look on my husband's face now strikes me as funny a day later.  But it was just so poignant in the moment that it moved me to tears.  I know.  That's a little over the top.


Since I am not so funny, sometimes I steal a funny phrase from someone else...someone born funnier than I.  So, today I borrowed a funny phrase from Marla.  I have been, as she said, "blubbering like a Beluga whale".  Off and on, but that's enough to spoil your day.  I knew it was not a good day to go to a funeral but I wouldn't have missed it for the world.  The preacher could have talked about Miss Daisy's affinity for Chick Fil A diet lemonades, or how she always took a bite and fed Winston (the dog) a bite, and I would have still blubbered.  It was just a blubbering kind of day.  It has been for a week now and that's not a good thing.  I'm thinking maybe it's time to try out some bio-identical hormones, or maybe Prozac, or maybe even just a glass of wine might help.  Once I climb back up the cliff, I'll get a grip and return to my normal, happy go lucky self.  It just isn't happening today.

Marla's:
http://buttsandashes.blogspot.com/2012/01/disgusting-tasteless-desperately-sad.html

8 comments:

  1. We all have those days or moments. Sometimes, it's just best to let the tears flow and share them with someone that cares. Like your fellow bloggers!

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  2. Awww,losing a friend, having emergency oral surgery, your sister moving so far away. I'm not surprised you are crying. Just the oral surgery would be enough for me to go over the edge. Let the tears flow, and I'm thinking that in a few weeks you will start really feeling better! I hope and I'm gonna keep you in my thoughts. Take care!

    Susan

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  3. I think it is very healthy to blubber when sad things happen.

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  4. Oh no what a rough time you have had. I am really sorry that you lost your friend.
    We all have moments like this and sadness is a normal emotion like any other. It makes us human. Also you will need to grieve. That is natural. However ask your hubby to keep an eye on you as if the low mood persists and you experience changes in appetite/mood/sleep and start thinking very negative thoughts then of course you should see a doctor/psychologist etc as that would be indicating something more serious than sadness.

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  5. Oh Sandra I just want to hug you and tell you this too shall pass, but I know I cannot hug you or tell you that and you believe it.
    I have lost many close friends and family that is very very hard and your sister moving I can't even fathom that.
    Go ahead and cry it out.
    I myself have held on the edge of that cliff for dear life hoping to pull myself up before I hit bottom.
    The fact that you can laugh out loud my friend is a good thing.
    Do take care of yourself and do what you have to do to get through this rough patch. I am pretty sure we your blogger family have all been there at one time or another. Many of us many times. The good thing is you will get through this I know this in my heart. Hug even though it is only a virtual one I hope it helps. Don't spend to much time alone immerse yourself in an environment that will make you laugh and feel productive.
    It is funny My Hero always thought ice cream would work he is so cute:)B

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  6. I am so sorry.

    Sometimes we all need a good cry. I know it helps me feel better.

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  7. Thanks everyone. I have recovered from this little downturn. Helps me a lot to vent! Thx for the "listen".

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