Saturday, February 3, 2018
Today's prompt was to create a self portrait illustrating what it would look like to live in God's abundance. My first thought was, "Boy, is that challenging!" For me to draw a self portrait we're talking maybe a month if I could even do it at all.....not a part of a day.
First, the message I got, which I know to be true, is I'm already living in God's abundance! So I knew what I wanted the portrait to look like. Then I found an app called Photo Sketch Maker and transformed two photo of my grandsons and me. It went from photo to portrait drawing in seconds. I was impressed. Someday I may try to paint it but for now, well....take a look. I live in this abundance of love in my arms! And I am so grateful.
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Becoming a widow is on no one's bucket list or life plan.
Morbidly speaking, maybe it should be since it is inevitable that one of a partnership will go first. One goes. One stays. The one who stays has a lot of work to do. Emotionally and practically.
Maybe you've talked about it with your spouse. We did that. But once it happens in your life, you realize the scope of loss is beyond you. Like a tsunami of sorts. It knocks you off your feet. It threatens to drown you.
When it was my turn to walk this walk, my family, counsellors, and friends all threw me a rope. They put their arms around me and were there every way possible. Sometimes I let them in, and sometimes I just treaded water, gulped and sputtered all by myself.
Approaching the one year anniversary last summer, I proactively booked out June and July. Get away from that next wave which threatens to hit you. "You are so brave", they said. "I admire you." Well, I'll take it but, really, I'm on the defensive. Running away from it. I was getting the h____ out of Dodge before being submerged...again.
It's been 18 months now and I should have a grip on this, and most days I do. I go to sleep and wake up with prayers of gratitude on my lips. I am truly blessed in so many ways. My very best friend now is God. His spirit never leaves me in the cold, always there when I call, directing my path. Loving me.
And yet...still. A. Very. Hard. Walk.
Inspiration To Live Well Sandra Wilkes Art
Monday, December 4, 2017
But today it is all about this cat. I don't love him. I don't even know him, but he has made his way onto my canvas. I was drawn to these eyes and I wanted to preserve them. My first cat portrait and maybe my last. Hope you like him. He is in Oils, 11x14.
Sunday, January 8, 2017
If you are currently grieving like I am, how do you lose yourself? Is it through your work? A hobby? Is your diversion family and friends? Hopefully you can lose yourself in a healthy way instead of having yet another drink, a third bowl of ice cream or curling into a ball and thinking you can cry your grief away eventually. You can't.
I know what works for me. But just because I know doesn't mean that I do it. Knowing and doing are two different things. But if I do reach out and pick up a paintbrush, I can float away from that which hurts me. I can just let it go, or rather maybe it loosens it's grip on me and lets me go.
Soon I will finish the painting I've been working on with Sherry Hardage.
|Work In Progress. Not Use To Acrylics Yet. Learning About Them.|
I hope you find your magic bullet for tazing grief so it will be powerless over you for awhile. It will come back but at least it will lay in a heap on the floor for awhile.
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
"This summer has been like living in the twilight zone." I said that to one of my sons and he looked puzzled. "The Twilight Zone" was an old Rod Serling tv show I liked... and it always left you shaking your head and saying, "What? What happened?" It always left you wondering .....what was real and what wasn't and had you fallen into another dimension.
Waking up on a mountain in the woods is the opposite. It is grounding. And it grounds you.... in nature, beauty, and serenity. It reminds you what is real. Sunrise, sunset like clockwork. Big Sky full of leaves soon to change colors and fall, like clockwork. Quiet water. Stillness. Less wondering. A small step back in the direction of Knowing.
Stepping out of the twilight zone is a good step to take.